Every becoming is hiding non-being, and every non-being is hiding other becomings. What you know is always less than what you don't know.

One day, a Chinese farmer found his barn door open and saw that his only horse was gone. His friends, who heard about his loss, soon came to console him. “Oh, what a disaster for you,” they whined. But the Chinese, who was a philosopher, said: "You never know. Maybe this is better." The next day, the lost horse appeared with a mare following it. This time, the Chinese's friends envied him, saying, "What luck! You now have two horses." But the Chinese only said, "You never know. Maybe it's not good at all." The next day, the Chinese man's son, who was riding the mare, fell and broke his leg. The Chinese's friends started whining again: "Oh, what a disaster!" The Chinese never lost their composure. "You never know, maybe this is better," he said. A day later, war broke out in that part of China. All the young men of the village were drafted into the army and soon died at the front. The farmer's son, who had a broken leg and did not go to war, remained in the village as a young man. He lived in peace for many more years, cultivating his grandfather's fields.

I was born. The year 1976. My father had one foot in Belgium at that time. Among the groups of workers who came from Turkey to work in the 60s. He returns after his mining accident and gets married, and I am born. But one foot is still there, paperwork, this and that, maybe for other reasons. My mother also works. One of the favorite production chiefs and union representative of the Egyptian company. I grew up with my aunt for the first four years after I was born. In one of the rising suburbs of Istanbul. My cousins who trade coal and get up early in the morning are much older than me. Even though I can't understand it, at that time, almost everyone around me was interested in something related to coal.

There was a coup, it happened, so it's not the days in 1980 that I remember very consciously. That year, I came to Kadıkoy from my aunt's house to my parents' house. A good neighborhood, a good school, good relationships, but a childhood full of social anxiety. 7 years of Anatolian High School, years spent being introverted, respectful and a good student, taking refuge in his classes from all the things he was bored of. Üsküdar Anatolian High School, which I started in 1987, finished in 1994 and I continued my education at Middle East Technical University IIBF Department of Political Science and Public Administration.

During those years, Ankara and the political atmosphere were quite turbulent. Despite everything, deep confrontations did not occur at METU. When I was starting the 3rd grade, I had a sharp crossroads with my father. I went through an engagement period that he did not approve of and that forced me. Then my mother suffered from serious and rapid illnesses. My engagement did not last long. My mother's illness got worse and worse. I left school in the last year and returned to Istanbul. There was a big earthquake in 1999, but nothing happened to my family and relatives. I spent that year with activities such as working as a travel agency and private mathematics lessons.

In July 2000, I started working as a night receptionist at the Ibrahim Pasha Hotel, where I went to spend my summer months and earn some money, which would last for about 6 years. The hotel's high-quality guest profile and the qualified design of the place strengthened my human communication and analytical thinking skills. I received many job offers and invitations during my work, but I did not take the leap because I loved my job.

In 2002, due to my need to reduce my military service to a short period of time, I was accepted to Kadir Has University, Faculty of Economics and Administrative Sciences, Department of Tourism Management with a full scholarship and completed the four-year program in a short time of 3 years, while continuing my job at İbrahim Paşa Hotel. In 2007, I was appointed manager of the same hotel. In 2008, I completed my military service in Eskişehir in five months and continued my duty as a manager until the end of 2016, after taking a short break.

While I was working at the hotel, in 2013, I aimed for an idyllic change in the course of my life by renting lands to produce garlic and melon in an area of ​​12 hectares in total on the borders of Gelibolu and Eceabat districts of Çanakkale province. It was an initiative at my highest limits and a move outside the conventional habits the farmer was used to. Since it was open agriculture, it was a job dependent on the fragility of climatic conditions, and in this sense, things did not go well at all. I closed the year with a great loss. This was the beginning of my troubled days that would spread to the following years.

At the end of 2016, we organized a visit with Birlik Recycling company to Molpoly company in Putten, Netherlands. Afterwards, I left my job at the hotel and started working with Birlik Recycling Ltd. Molpoly; It is a company that purchases large quantities of products from numerous important petrochemical facilities such as BASF, Total, Dow and Ineos, with its strong relationships and reliable commercial identity, and also purchases and markets petrochemical products that can be considered waste on a contract basis. We applied for polystrene waste products and the company continued its purchases for 3 years. I carried out the coordination in the first year. From time to time, we tried to expand the volume we purchased by negotiating with other companies. For these meetings, I was in countries such as Greece, Bulgaria, Netherlands, Germany, Belgium, Iran and Saudi Arabia. Polystrene is an intermediate input for the production of insulation material XPS sheet. It was a profitable and profitable business because the recycled materials used in the production process reduced product costs and the tonnage of sales was high. The more scrap plastic you find, the more recycling granules you produce and the more you sell to the insulation companies that are already waiting. At least that was the market structure in those years. In those years, our country became a favorite market as the Chinese government imposed a ban on China purchasing Europe's garbage dump. Recycling companies, of course, my country's companies, all of them, a significant part of them small-scale, made their first purchases through contacts with their spouses and friends living in Europe. The resources found, their hiding, market rumors, attempts to hook someone else's trash, etc. went on and on. European waste collection companies have amassed huge fortunes. At that time, I had sectoral observations.

In 2018, I left Birlik Recycling company and founded Poly-Tech Polymer Ltd. I had an unregistered oral partner. He was an experienced salesman for a large technical polymer company. In fact, he was the big and shadow partner and even the owner of the company, but I just put his name on the letterheads, hiding it. He founded and shaped the business. In the same year, I found a significant source of polystrene from Miami, but the source was suspicious to me. I wanted to confirm the product, seller and shipment through my partner's nephew who lives there. However, my partner did not have a significant contribution to this matter, and we could not prevent this purchase from resulting in fraud. The contents of the container, which came to Ambarlı customs in 2 containers full of rags, were rags printed with the logos of well-known brands. Imagine, you buy a product, you say "we were defrauded" and then close it, but it turns into a stomach ache that lasts for months, and it is waiting at the customs with the piles inside that need to be destroyed. There are costs at customs depending on the value of the container's content, and you wake up facing the danger of facing other fines for days.

My father passed away in those days. My share of the inheritance from him was also sued because of this matter. The process is still ongoing. We kept a large warehouse in Gebze at the end of 2018 and did a lot of business with the same partner in 2019. Strengthening our capital structure slightly with a third strong partner was beneficial in this regard. However, despite high-profit unit-based businesses, we could not achieve the expected profitability due to low sales continuity. It is a fact that a partner without a business or accounting background creates communication problems. Behind every operational activity is a business process and account directory. Over time I discovered the difference between my partner and me was that while he was doing it for pleasure and personal satisfaction, I was doing it to survive. Explaining a lot of things he didn't understand and seeing the displeasure on his face was putting incredible pressure on me. I ended my partnership in the summer of 2020.

At the end of the same year, we opened a recycling factory in Kayseri with two different partners under the name PolyTech Polymer. However, it didn't work out for various reasons. Even if everything had been perfect, the factory would have been closed within a year due to the notification issued by the Ministry of Environment regarding waste imports, which I now think is extremely positive, because it lost its purpose. Somehow, a traditional Turkish manufacturing style (!) was added to my memories.

For two years between 2021 and 2023, I took part in the establishment of the organization at Mavirem Hotel, founded by my old friend and a friend with whom I worked for years, during the establishment years of the hotel. Everything is working very well now. After 2 years of simple and tiring work, like rehabilitation, I will be continuing my work again from where I left off.